Frustration & Forgiveness

I woke up this morning thinking about how I get frustrated with my kids when they don’t listen and are being actively defiant.  I am trying to think calmly about what their emotions are in this and what they need from me when they are acting that way.  I pray for God to help me with “radiating unconditional love” to them, and to achieve a goal of not ever raising my voice in frustration even a scant bit (is that realistic? I dunno).  My alarm clock goes off to wake me, and the daily bible quote that I have on my phone is popped up.  I read it.  It’s perfect:

Ephesians 4:31-32

31 Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.  32 Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

I’m also thinking about forgiving my hex (ex) as well, and thinking about the context from which he is acting.  He doesn’t know or understand life in the same manner as most of us, and it’s really hard to remember that when interacting with him when he is bullying, aggressive, threatening.

Likewise, I am responding with all that I know as well.  Sometimes I can take the “high road”, and sometimes it’s really difficult to do that – both with my ex and my children when they are misbehaving.  While I am praying for the ability to always radiate unconditional love, I also need to be able to accept and forgive myself for all that I am, and for those times when I can’t be all that I want to be.

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